Wednesday, June 2, 2010

I should really catch up on sleep, but I think my dearest deserve these compliments. Thank you darling for accompanying me to shop shop today, and waiting for my school to be over. He has been soooooooooo nice to me and it feels like I'm living in a fairytale, and I'm super happy that I can't describe this feeling properly. Hmm.

Yesterday at 5.30pm a girl suicided by hanging outside her boyfriend's house. I felt really really sad for her because I could understand how it feels exactly. Usually, such thinking is on the spur of the moment. sometimes people plan it, she left 8 letters of suicide notes for her family, ex-boyfriend and you know you know. If only she knows that there is a suicidal hotline.. argh. It must have been very depressing, and worst of all, her parents are the ones who suffer the most.. my heart goes all out to them.. i hope that they can let go soon.. her father, especially...

when I read the news I start to relate to my ownself and I wonder if that person I called yesterday would cry, because it is exactly the same case and even though i didn't tell her my name, i said lived in the same region where the girl who suicided was being reported. I hope that the caller would be fine..

i'm enjoying every moment of this now, eating together, talking crap and sharing our ideas and dreams. i wonder how long this can last, because sometimes i feel that his concentration on a certain object or person can only last for a day or two. still, it was very wonderful memories. that's what i've always been afraid of - creating memories that makes you glued to the past, so whenever you think of your future, you wonder how can you live in the future without accomplishing the dreams/goals you set for yourself and your loved one UNintentionally.

and i'm still feeling a little mentally and emotionally drained.
hope recovery will SPEED UP

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